Sep 28, 2009

1st Story : The Heartbreak

There is a guy.. and I truly love him…
But he cant even see me even when I'm right in front of him…
I gave him all the love I have but He gave me all the hatred that he got..
I love him wit my all but he has no space for me in his heart, not anymore…

When I'm walking around, I want to see nobody… especially him…
It hurts so much when I see him but is ignored totally..
It hurts so much when I saw him smiling but not to me…
It hurts so much when I see him laughing but not bcoz of me…
I didn't have any of his smiles n laughter anymore..
I yearn to see him smile at me just one last time..

I can still remember each moment we are together…
When I can feel that he loves me…
When I know that he wants me.. needs me in his life…

I have the same prayer every night.. The next time I wake up from my sleep,
please let me forget that I’ve ever known him…
please let me forget every memories we had…
please let me forget every word he said…
please let me forget every movement he made…

My life would be much much easier if that prayer comes true..
Coz even without things that will make me remember him, he is still everywhere..

One day, I did forget him… I enjoyed myself but I felt something missing in me…
Then, I found the missing piece before I went to sleep : Him…

Even I pray each day that I’ll forget him, I know somewhere in my heart I can’t do so…
I’ve made him a promise that whatever happens, I’ll never regret knowing him…
That’s the only promise that I’ll never break for knowing him is the best thing that has ever happen to me…

He has forgotten our memories…
Soon, he’ll forget that he even known me..
But I'm going to keep remembering him.. and be haunted by memories with him forever…
I’ll remember all the good things and get rid of the bad things…

That’s what my heart said to me…
I won’t be happy by forgetting everything
But I’ll be happy by picking what I want to remember…